DMX Talks About His Bipolar Disorder

DMX Talks About His Bipolar Disorder

Bipolar disorder, formerly known as manic depression, can mean wild mood swings and extreme shifts in energy, which can make it difficult to get things done every day.  Patients who live with the disorder often have a hard time maintaining stability, especially when interacting with other people. They may have explosive outbursts of temper that are unpredictable followed by deep depression characterized by hopelessness and despair.

It’s a struggle that DMX has been dealing with for years. In a recent interview, the rapper spoke about his experience with bipolar disorder and talked about his difficulties in separating his life as DMX, the rapper, from his personal life as Earl Simmons, his legal name.

For DMX, bipolar disorder means extreme manic periods followed by periods of intense depression. He says: “I’m not the person the media portrays me to be. X is the bad guy. That’s not who I am. I’m not the person the media portrays me to be.”

As difficult as it is for the media to discern between Earl Simmons and DMX, the rapper has similar issues on a personal level and says that he’s not even sure that there is a difference sometimes: “I used to be really clear on who was what and what characteristics each personality had. But I don’t know at this point. I’m not even sure there is a difference. I’m Earl when I’m with my children. I miss my children, I miss my children, I miss my children.”

In addition to bipolar disorder, DMX has famously struggled with drug addiction as well. It’s not uncommon among those living with mental illnesses; many dealing with depression, bipolar disorder, schizophrenia and other significant illnesses will often attempt to medicate the symptoms with drugs and alcohol, ultimately developing an addiction as a result. Dual Diagnosis treatment is often the only way to get help for both disorders at the same time.

For now, DMX is working on staying clean and sober in addition to getting the help he needs for bipolar disorder – “one day at a time” is his motto and spirituality is his guide:  “Every day. I start my day off with a prayer, as God to guide my steps. Cover me and keep me safe. Every album there’s a gospel song and a prayer. Every album, from the beginning.”

He’s hoping that his focus on recovery will help him to make strides in his recording career and avoid repeating mistakes that have landed him in jail repeatedly over the years.

“There will never be another me, never,” DMX said. “To this date I have records that have yet to be broken.”